One’s diagnosed hearing loss/deafness may not “appear” to align with their diagnosis. However, deaf identity is so much more than a diagnosis or severity of hearing loss.
Generally speaking, deaf identity refers to how one relates to or identifies with the deaf community. One may choose to identify as capital “D” Deaf (fully immersed in Deaf culture) or lowercase “d” deaf. People who identify as the latter tend to view their deafness as one aspect of their identity instead of the main part of it. Rather than aligning with Deaf culture, they may consider themselves part of a speaking deaf community.
Read More: Why lower case “d” deaf culture matters
Discovering my Deaf Identity
As someone who has had hearing loss my entire life, I have primarily used hearing aids and spoken English to communicate. For the longest time up until my 20’s, I identified as hard of hearing because I had a moderate to severe (now almost fully severe) hearing loss. I’ve also lived in a hearing world, so this identity seemed suitable. However, I always felt like there was something missing. I was always stuck in the middle between not being fully hearing, and also not being profoundly Deaf. I felt as though I was not Deaf enough. People saw my hearing aids and saw that I could speak. It has always been as if I’m hearing, yet I’m not.
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As I began my studies in psychology with a drive to work with deaf and hard of hearing individuals, I began taking Deaf culture and American Sign Language courses. My eyes were opened in unexpected ways. I instantly fell in love with the culture and the language. I started to realize that I don’t have to be diagnosed with a profound deafness in order to identify as lower case “d” deaf and be a part of this amazingly unique culture and community. When using sign language and communicating with other deaf and hard of hearing individuals, I feel alive – an experience I didn’t fully have until recent years.
“I started to realize that I don’t have to be diagnosed with a profound deafness in order to identify as lower case “d” deaf and be a part of this amazingly unique culture and community.”
My eyes opened even more as my hearing loss began to progress. I started exploring different environments in which I needed different accommodations. What worked my entire life simply wasn’t working anymore. Another particularly defining moment that highlighted my identity was recognizing the beauty of not wearing my hearing aids and having that complete silence without sensory overload or listening fatigue. I realized just how beautiful and even useful it can actually be to be deaf. It wasn’t necessary to extend so much energy trying to hear. I could just follow my captioner without all of the distractions of noise, etc. and I appreciated the profound silence in so many ways.
While some adjustments were/are frustrating and challenging, it’s an ongoing process that has awakened me to just how adaptable we can be, how empowering it can be to be have to be so resourceful, and find even more new ways of doing things, even when you already thought you’ve had it all figured out. These experiences showed me that I AM deaf enough, a sign that I’ve been looking for my entire life.
Today, I identify with the deaf community through continuously learning and using sign language, connecting with other deaf and hard of hearing individuals, using alternative methods of communication such as captioning or signed content, taking a break from my hearing aids/assistive technology, and being an advocate for myself and others in the community.
Finding your own deaf identity
If you’re reading this article as someone who is struggling to find your own deaf identity, here are some things I’ve learned from my journey:
What others should know about people who identify as deaf
If you’re reading this as someone who is hearing, here are some things we want you to know:
The Bottom Line
We all have identities and the way we identify is unique to our own selves, our own experiences, perspectives, preferences, and much more. Every single person you meet has a story that is remarkably different from one person to the next. Even two people who have the exact same diagnosis of hearing loss, or seem equally involved in the community, can choose to identify very differently because the way in which they experience their hearing loss will not be equivalent. That’s okay. We were born to be different, to be ourselves, and be whomever we choose to be.